im sick! i was having fever during the class. my whole body was shivering & aching. i couldn't walk home coz its too cold 4 me. it just freezes u when the wind blows.
maybe its because of :
~ sleepless nights (family problem) mom calls me at midnite ask me to tell dad this & that .... dad calls me after that ask me to not listen to mom this & that ...... great! i've become once again a center victim of your game. i understand both of ur situation but i couldn't tell both of you the situation of each other. stop guessing & assume one's feeling & condition. it just won't get anywhere. wake up guys! im so tired of handling both of you ..... it has been ages & yet its still not settled. please chant more & get wisdom & make correct actions!
~ hunger ... i only have 2 meals per day. that would be my brunch & dinner. thats why i sleep early here. its cold & it makes you hungry. no nasi kandar or hokkien mee for supper!not that i don't have enough money, i just wana save $ for emergency use. gee .... im getting skinnier, my watch is getting loose again. i promise i will eat more when i have a PT job.
~ the weather ... nothing to say, just have to bare with it.
got home, had sandwich and 2 panadols & slept till 6.30pm. now im feeling much better.
i must not loose. have to be strong. i can go through this! through faith!i have gohonzon!i have Sensei!i have family & friends support.